I Wanna Be Adored

She's Already In Me

There’s something haunting about the way “I Wanna Be Adored” unfolds—minimal yet magnetic. The bassline enters first, steady and hypnotic, setting a pulse that feels almost subterranean, like something stirring just beneath the surface. The guitar follows, its notes reverberating and building a shimmering atmosphere, like light breaking through a hazy fog. It doesn’t rush; it expands, leaving space for the tension to breathe.

By the time Ian Brown’s vocals arrive, they feel inevitable—low and understated, carrying the weight of a quiet declaration. The music itself mirrors this restraint, drawing you in without ever demanding your attention. Yet there’s an edge to its energy, as if it’s daring us to question how we feel about wanting. Who—or what—is “he”? The Devil archetype comes to mind—not as an external force, but as something already within us: the part that questions, tempts, and challenges us to confront what we desire most and how we feel about claiming it.

The Devil and Capricorn’s Lesson

As discussed in previous posts, the Devil in Tarot corresponds to Capricorn, a sign associated with structure, ambition, and mastery. Capricorn asks us to engage with desire—not to fear or suppress it, but to integrate it and use it as a foundation for building something real.

This archetype resonates strongly with me. Venus, the planet of love, beauty, and creativity, sits at 28 degrees Capricorn in my natal chart, evoking a deep interplay of intuitive and active power. At this degree, it channels the energy of the High Priestess (2) and Strength (8)—a meeting of inner wisdom and raw vitality. Strength itself offers the image of delicate yet powerful harmony, an alignment of focus and trust where conditioned fears are transformed into allies.

Capricorn’s energy is about creating structure and legacy, and Venus in this sign blends artistry with that process. In my 12th house, this energy is expressed in hidden patterns and spiritual exploration—finding ways to draw what’s unseen into form.

The Song, the Memory, the Feeling

When I first discovered this album, it felt like an initiation into something expansive and transformative. I was with “her” at the time, and that memory lingers—the feelings of mystery, connection, and magic. But that moment belongs to the past. Do I need to make a deal with the Devil to bring it back? Of course not. “She” is already in me.

This is the Devil’s ultimate lesson: nothing we desire—adoration, connection, creativity—needs to be bargained for. These feelings don’t live outside of us, and they aren’t trapped in the past. They are currents within us, always present, always waiting to be rediscovered and brought to life.

Burning Green Fire

The avatar for this blog—a figure with green fire burning behind her eyes—embodies Venus in Capricorn. She is the artist within the builder, the force of creation and transformation. Her fire isn’t about shame or resistance; it’s about the vitality of embracing all parts of ourselves, especially the ones we’ve been conditioned to dismiss or hide.

Green, the color of the heart chakra, reminds me that this energy is rooted in love—love for ourselves, our desires, and our creations. It isn’t about seeking validation from others but about honoring what already lives within.

Building from What Is Already Ours

To be adored is not about chasing, bargaining, or trying to reclaim what seems lost. It’s about realizing that the feelings we long for—connection, magic, love—have always been ours. They are not tethered to the past or dependent on anyone else. They’re part of us, currents waiting to move, to rise, and to shape the lives we create.

Capricorn’s gift is the power to build, and Venus in Capricorn reminds me that creation begins with desire—not as something to be resisted but as the spark that brings form to life. When we trust and nurture what is freely given to us—especially our desires—life responds. Not by repeating what has been, but by opening new paths, new possibilities, and experiences we have yet to imagine. This is the enduring power of creation: to claim what is ours and bring it forward into a life that is truly our own.